I'm all by myself...
My wife has been Medically Separated from the Peace Corps because a medical condition that took her back to the states was not resolved within 45 days. So it goes. I believe things are getting better now as she accepts this new turn. She has some job interviews next week and has an amazing support network at home.
But I'm still here and it goes without saying that I'm incredibly torn. Obviously I want to support my wife during this extremely hard time. It pains me every day not to be able to work with her through this. But I also made a commitment to the Peace Corps and really want to learn from and have this experience, especially now that I'm getting into my groove, doing projects (see www.flickr.com/photos/mollyquixote/ for some photos of a workshop I just did) and bonding with Burkinabe. I feel like I will either fail as a husband or fail my village. What to do.
At this point, my idea is to stay. This can change at any time (we are volunteering after all), though I risk losing the Interrupted Service option, which is kind of like an honorable discharge and still involves many of the benefits of volunteers who complete a full term. Mrs. San wants me to stay, but what I really need to figure out if I want to stay. Will what I get out of this be greater than what I can do at home? Would I do more harm going home anyway? Will I be a better husband, our marriage be stronger because of this? I can't answer any of these, though I kind of have to.
Update to come.
